Saturday, October 12, 2013

Can we keep 'em?

     When we were expecting our first born, we planned for his arrival. We decorated his nursery and thought of a name. We bought his little clothes and hung them up on little hangers. We collected tiny diapers and soft little blankets. We were blessed with baby showers and had pretty much everything we needed. We even secured his carseat in the car so it would be ready for him. All that, and I guess we still didn't truly understand what was about to happen.
     When Silas was born, we were instantly amazed and in love. I NEVER wanted to put him down. When someone else was holding him, I missed him SO much. Matt and I did everything together, because we didn't want to miss out. We changed his tiny diapers, and put on the tiny little hospital shirt, and heard the tiny little baby noises, and I just remember thinking, "Wow! I am so completely overwhelmed with love for this little chunk of precious." He was so soft and smoochable and beautiful. I just. never. dreamed.
     Then the day came to be discharged. We were loading our cart with all of our things, and I remember Matt and I just looking a each other both knowing that we were thinking the same thing..."This is it? He's ours? We get to take him home?" It was. He is. We could. I knew this because I asked the nurse as much when she returned. She confirmed that he was in fact ours to take home and keep and raise. We were the most blessed parents in the world. The most precious thing ever, and he was ours! There are no words...
Silas

Then we were blessed enough to repeat this process again...
Camden
 
 

And again...
Bliss
 
 
 
And again.

Zeb
 
 
While we knew what to expect after our first experience of labor and delivery and postpartum, it was still such an amazing and overwhelming feeling with the others. I don't take it for granted. I thank the Lord for my babies, and for the special kind of love He gives to daddys and mommas.
 
 


Thursday, October 10, 2013

Softening the Blow... with Trout

     Camping is always great fun for our family. We only go once a year (so far anyway) as a family, but Matt and the big boys also go on a camping trip in the spring. They have a blast, and are always looking forward to the next. Recently, though, my husband has been preparing to go on a camping trip with his brother and a friend…without the boys.
      When Camden saw Matt making some “new inventions” to try while fishing, he got so excited! He knew that kind of fishing meant camping. A few days later, when Matt found out about Camden’s assumption and broke the news to the boys that he would be leaving them at home this time, the reactions were pitiful. Silas got a bit teary eyed, but tried not to let it show, and handled the news with integrity. I was proud of him.
      Then there was Camden, who had already built his excitement up thinking he was going camping. Oh, how the tears flowed! It was a silent cry at that. When Camden gets upset, he usually runs off to someone’s bed (this time Bliss’) and lies there for a long while. He just laid silently, tears flowing. When Camden’s heart is broken, the look on his face does a number on us (especially me). Our hearts break too. This is true with all of our children, of course. But Camden has the most pitiful heartbroken look, by far, when he is sad.
      Since Matt was going to be gone for a couple days, he wanted to do some things with the kids before he left. The final thing he decided he would do was take us all trout fishing, which requires a little bit of traveling for us to get to. The first spot we reached had too many people, so we tried another. Not one single bite the whole time we were there, but the kids did work hard making a “frog habitat”. I know the frogs are forever grateful.
     After a while, we decided to pack up and go to another city and try some fishing spots there. When we reached our favorite spot, the water was too low. So, we moved on to our final option. Matt said there was one area that might be deep enough to fish in. We decided to give it a shot and unloaded our gear.
    The shore was made of soggy, muddy sand. Camden decided to pick some up to feel, and then he washed his hands in the water. He loved watching how the sand mixture dispersed into the water. He said it looked like what a sting ray does, whatever that means. He then decided to scoop more up and repeat over and over just to watch it in the water. Then Bliss joined in.

 Before we knew it, Camden and Bliss were each using one of Camden’s shoes as a pail.
They would scoop up water and pour it out.
 

They got wet! The water was cold by the way, but the kids didn’t let it bother them. At least somebody was actually doing what they came to do.

Matt did catch something not too long after we got there. Someone else's lure.

 Zeb just had a great time exploring! He played with rocks and sticks and rocks and dirt and rocks and water (and a shoe)!
 

  Sister bear put a little mud on Zeb’s back.

  Zeb put a little mud in his mouth.

  Once when he was on all fours trying to pick up another find out of the water, he slipped and took a face dive into the water. I picked him up promptly, but he was not happy. The water was cold, so that’s why he is stripped down to his diaper. He recovered quickly, but when Bliss slipped and fell, and got a bit more wet than she had planned, I took her and Zeb to our van and changed them into something dry. Of course, when we made it back down to where the boys were, they had caught a fish while I was gone. Matt took a picture for me, and then they let it go. It was too small to keep.
 
 
      I heard Matt say to the boys something like, “Now, when did we catch a fish?” Their answers were “When we were quiet.”, and “When we were out of the water.” Ha! Ha!
 

      When Camden slipped and fell, he was ready to go change too. So, he and the littles came with me to the van. Everyone got dry and seated, and then we waited for the devoted fishermen to catch “one last fish.” After a while, up they came. Silas, got all dry, Matt packed up, and we headed home.

     So, though the actual fishing was not successful, the fishing trip was very successful. The kids had a great time, and almost everyone fell asleep on the way home after a hard day of play.  We got some quality time with Matt before his trip, and, while it didn’t make up for the boys not getting to go camping, I think it lessened the blow a little. A little.


A Zeb Post

         Kids grow and change so quickly, especially tiny tots. I often forget many of the things they do. If I do remember, I often forget who did it. Oh, how I wish I could remember every little moment with my little loves! Anyhow, I want to really try to keep track of who did what when. I may even write things that happened a few years back if I they come to mind. I hope they will, anyway. Today...a post for Zeb.Age: 12 months 21 days
  1. Zeb REALLY likes ice cream and frozen yogurt.
  2. When he lies his head on my shoulder and I pat his back, he pats my back with one of his cute little chunky hands! I love when babies do that! Sweet boy!
  3. Zeb likes to be laid down to sleep, and is usually asleep within a minute or two. Yay!
  4. When he is put down for his morning nap as soon as he starts to get tired, he sleeps really well for a really long time. If we are gone somewhere past naptime, when I finally do lay him down, he doesn't sleep long at all. Silas was also like that as a baby, and he slept better at night when he had good naps that day.
  5. In the past few weeks, he has started throwing the little "feet stompin'" tantrums when he doesn't get his way.
  6. When Zeb comes inside here at home or anyone else's house, he almost always closes the door behind him. I'm not sure why this gets to me so much. I guess it just seems so "big boyish".
  7. He likes to dance. I never tire of watching my babies dance.
  8. Little brother likes to copy his brothers and sister. If they run and jump in a pile of cushions, so does he. The same goes for swinging their legs while sitting in a chair, needing a drink, choosing a book, spinning around, etc.
  9. About a week ago, Matt firmly told one of the kids to "Stop!". Zeb, wanting to get in on the action also yelled, "Stop!", while pointing a finger and giving a scowl. Matt had to say, "You stay out of it and only worry about Zeb." to our 12 month old! Crazy kid!
  10. Even though Zeb has tubes, he still frequently gets ear infections. Boo! I was hoping he wouldn't be a member of that club.
  11. When I'm sweeping, little man attacks my dirt pile and spreads it everywhere.
  12. Bliss calls him "Zebby", and as much as I think it takes the "toughness" away from his name, the whole household has found ourselves calling him that. (sigh) It's catchy. I like Zeb, Z, and Z.Q. much better.
  13.  Zeb has been pulling on his clothes a lot lately and whining wanting them off. After we undress his down to his diaper, he's perfectly happy.
  14. In the past week or so, Zeb's 7th tooth popped through.
  15. As an infant, Zeb rarely wore shoes. As he got older, we didn't put them on him either. One reason was because it was summertime. Also, he'd started pulling up, standing on his own, and walking, and we didn't want the shoes to hinder him. Well, about a month or so ago I knew fall was approaching and Z needed to get used to shoes, so I slipped some on him. He "marched" a few steps, then sat down and tried to take them off. Then he cried, and screamed, and kicked, and crawled. Then he just sat and refused to move. It took a "few" tries and a month or so, but I am happy to report that Zeb wore shoes to church this past Sunday without protest. Yay!
  16. When he gets upset, he grabs hold of my hair, skin, jewelry, or whatever else he can and pulls. OUCH! I am putting much effort into nipping this in the bud. It has to stop soon!
  17. Zebby has the sweetest little kisses. One morning when Zeb woke up, I brought him into bed with me hoping that he would fall back to sleep (Ha! Ha!). I felt a sweet little kiss on my lips and opened my eyes to see my baby boy looking me right in the eyes and just a grinnin'! Oh, the things he does to my heart!
  18. His smile with his little gap between his two front teeth melts my heart.
  19. He puts everything in his mouth!
Here's my most recent picture of Zeb. It is from a little less than two weeks ago. Yes, that is mud around his mouth. I think he could easily become a fan of mud pies. Ha!